A State of Flux and Transition

I am currently in a sort of quandry.

In short, my quandry is what to do with this blog.

I haven't really used it for a couple months because I haven't felt the need to use it.  Nothing really happens that warrants posting about; things that do happen are so ridiculous they aren't worth wasting the energy on anymore.

When I first created this blog, it was at the suggestion of someone whom I thought had my best interests at heart when he suggested it.  In hindsight, I know now that he used the blog as a stand-in for himself because he doesn't have the maturity, social graces, or common decency to actually be there for someone when they need him.  He thought that my writing in a blog would replace his emotional support.  Now that he's out of my life and I'm moving ahead, I really have no need for this blog as I've been using it.  Much of the negative I was writing about no longer applies; my family (for all their annoyances) and I are on better terms, and I'm better than I've been in a long time.

One idea I have is to make it a creativity blog.  I've started sewing, I'm getting back into writing, and a space like this would be good to post in and help me stay motivated.  (Now, if only I didn't leave my camera in Pasadena...oy.)

So, yes.  This space will be much more positive from here on out.  The 'Transition' is over, and now it's time for the end result of that transition.  Good riddance to the bad rubbish I dealt with, and look ahead to what's coming.  We'll see where things go from here.

Non-freewrite Update: My current status and state of being

This isn't a freewrite.  Rather, it's an update as to my current feelings and status.  (Freewrite is forthcoming.)

In short, all systems worked out, and I have begun my first semester as a University student.  I am at CSU Northridge pursuing a Bachelor's in Public Health Education, I live in a nice place a couple miles from campus, and so far things are good.

Wait.  Things are actually GREAT.  I love my living arrangements.  I live in a large home with a bunch of other people (the majority of whom are CSUN students), and it's a great environment to live in while I study.  I'm already a bit more sociable with people, and I'm enjoying sitting out in the common areas and watching TV or using my Netbook, rather than sitting in a room doing nothing.  Everyone here is awesome, we're all supportive of one another, and it's just a great space to relax and study in.  I can see myself sticking around here for a while.

As for University, lemme tell you something.  It felt AMAZING to set foot on campus yesterday.  I really felt like I'd found my niche, felt like I was right where I belonged.  When I was going to Cypress, I felt very 'ehhhh' about being there.  It just didn't feel like I was supposed to be there.  But I definitely feel like I have a place at CSUN, even if it is a huge University, and I can see myself doing some good here.  Go me.

Last note for tonight

I'm much cooler than I was when I was venting.  Justin and I have an agreement in our bet that we can talk if we feel it's urgent enough, without a penalty to whomever initiates.  Well, let's just say that that posting of mine triggered the 'urgent' response on his end.  I'll share more in the morning when I'm not as tired (I've been pondering a few things with him all day, but they can wait), but I think the two of us are better off for it.  More on that next time.