In short, I feel like I need to withdraw for a while. I feel like I'm pretty well depleted emotionally and mentally right now. Right now, there's little I want more than to curl up somewhere and recharge. Minimal socializing, minimal of anything that would be hyper-taxing on me. Just rest and recharge.
I felt it big time at the end of the Faire day yesterday. Ever hit that wall where you think 'okay, I'm done'? I did. It wasn't anything anyone did or said, I just hit that wall. It hasn't helped that I've had to be both a rock and in need of one these past few weeks. The thought of having to keep on like this literally makes me tear up. I can't do it anymore. I can't function like this anymore.
So, I guess it's time to withdraw for a spell. I'll still be nearby if I'm needed, I'll still be supportive, and I'll still be doing Faire (and Guild meetings) and related things. I might even still be up to spending time with friends here and there. But I can't be there the way I have been for people. I may not be showing it, but I feel like I'm literally falling apart.
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